Thursday, August 16, 2012

The Party.

Listen to this while reading it will give you more of a feel to the dream.


I walked down a grand staircase into a huge room not unlike Cinderella only there was no prince charming, no one wore masks, and no one gawked at me wondering who I was and what I was doing there in fact, no one even cared that I had entered nor paid me any attention whatsoever. It was a huge room with pillars and the tiles on the floor were still immaculate, tables on either side of the staircase held drinks and finger foods. The room was not empty, people milled about talking to one another in their jeans and t-shirts casual for such a fancy place.
Music from no where and everywhere began to play at once it was a song I didn't recognize but everyone suddenly grabbed a partner and began to dance slowly, I looked around frantically trying to find someone to dance with I didn't want to keep throwing off the rhythm of those around me. Finally giving up and just looking around myself I realized that I now stood in the middle of the room, my friends and family danced around me happily then the music changed. People suddenly let their partners go as if they were appalled to even be in such a close proximity to one another.
Suddenly all eyes fell on me. I looked around into their accusing eyes. I took a step forward to explain that I didn't mean to do it but everyone just stood back creating a path back to the staircase. Slowly I walked through the crowed, an outcast. Finally I stood at the bottom of the stairs and looked back, the music had ended once again and everyone had completely forgotten about me, they stood around talking to one another like they hadn't just turned their backs on me.
I began walking up the stairs feeling truly alone.

Friday, August 10, 2012

My Nightmare...


I had a nightmare the other day, I cant tell you exactly what it means or why I had it, I can only tell you the part that has stayed in my head all day.

“NO! DON’T!” she cried grabbing my arm and pulling me back to face her. “Please don’t go.” she said the tears in her hazel eyes clear even in the dim moonlight.
“I have to.” I reply shrugging her hand off  and walking away. I could hear her crying, it pulled at my heart and somehow it seemed to get louder the further that I got from her. I have to.. I reminded myself again and again but I couldn’t stop myself from slowing down and stopping… WHY? why did I have to? I asked myself  unsure of the answer.
Turning I ran back to her, her cries echoing in my ears like a thousand coins dropped into a wishing well all at once. She wasn’t there, she wasn’t anywhere I open my mouth to yell for her and no sound comes out.
I’m lost, all I hear is her crying, all I can see is hundreds of trees locking me in to my own hell, my mind taunting me for leaving her like that. How could I be so cruel